thank you

thank you for reading.
im done for now.

to let go or not to let go?

you always want the best for the people that you care about. you want them to have a great future, to see new places, learn new cultures, live to their fullest.

but what if these are the people that are closest to you? the ones that you talk to every single day and night? the ones that you look forward to see? the ones that cheer u up? makes your heart beats a little faster, burden a little lighter, laugh a little louder?

what do you do?

you cant take losing them, but it's not right to keep them either.
are you suppose to put on a fake smile and say.. 'yeah, im happy for u!' when in reality your heart is boiling mad that they're going away. hmm...

dilemma, dilemma, dilemma...

mighty morphing

staring at me with a curious look on her face, she said 'are you chewing something?'.
believe it or not, that was not the first. of coz i was not, sudah tembam katanya.. here's what i had so far been compared to:
... hamster
... pinggan

ya, ok. just those two. apparently, this sudden gain of weight is rather shocking to most of my circle members, well.. i have to admit it is shocking to me as well. i think i might have to cut down on food intake. haish. food is good. alrite, lesser servings, increase frequencies.hmmm... that could work. could it?

Facebook

There is an account out there with my profile on it but damn.. it's freaking hard to maintain! Every single day I have to sift through ridiculous amount of requests, and at the end of the day, you just don't use much of it anyway.

Pokes are almost impossible to track.
Superwalls are no longer a good read.
Picking fights is already a bore.
Drinks, gifts, flowers.. appreciated but hmmm...
plus, I don't even care if people attack my werewolf/vampire/slayer anymore!
Searching friends to add into your list is close to impossible.

Facebook, Re-vamp!

*mexican wave for Friendster. =)

excellent !

TubeCodes.com

re: parody

yup. it definitely was!

sungguh predictable =)

trust

big word ain't it? one of the most cherished qualities in a human being. the one thing that plays a massive role in a relationship, be it between family members, partners, friends, acquaintances and even with doctors, teachers, car washers.. whenever and wherever.

building trust is an absolute craft. one mistake could cause a tremor and jeopardize the whole process of achieving it in the first place. sometimes it might not even be a huge deal to start with but still, the impact is there. so now, the billion dollar question..

how do you gain back a lost trust?

probably at one point or another we tend to fall under one of these categories:

1. forgive and forget
2. forgive but never forget
3. forget but never forgive

can we ever be the bigger person? can we ever get pass it?

well, if we cant. maybe we should turn to time for help.

hour twenty

i just need four more hours. yup, that's the amount of time that i have been spending stuck infront of this damn technology. this is the first in my life that i have ever been so dependent on the internet.

'hey! where have my font options disappeared to? ...weird.'

it's also worst that everything is just a few steps away. the beauty of your own place. everything is so conveniently stocked. work is work. play is play. rest is rest. but to have it all infront of the screen? that's just too much.

i gotta get out!

but it's such a lazy saturday.. maybe a nap would be best.
sweet dreams people!

parody

the day is fine i think. nothing went horribly wrong nor anything is perfectly right. but somehow it doesn't feel quite the same. maybe i'm thinking too much. i suppose it might be because of that. im not certain.

but i do know for sure that, im a bit...

oh well. lets just wait and see.

a real man

does this person really exist? the perfect man? the real deal?

some say yes, he is out there, you/i just have not found him yet.

ok, i think below are what most ladies' definition of a perfect man would be:

1. great hair
2. hard rocking well toned body
3. dresses well even when dressing down
4. intelligent leading to super excellent career
5. drop dead gorgeous car
6. super alluring crib
7. tonnes of money
8. fantastic sense of humour
9. well bred and thoughtful
10. excellent manners
11. great conversationalist
12. independent
13. spontaneous and passionate
14. loyal

when a girl is asked who would be your dream lover? almost without fail, we would say.. jeng-jeng-jeng... BRAD PITT!

yes, he is gorgeous and all but come to think of it.. the bloody bloke cheated on jennifer aniston for another luscious babe obviously; angelina jolie and denied his lust with claims that the poor sweetheart didn't want to have babies. please la! who in the right mind could say no to angelina jolie? even if in some twisted cosmic event where i was to turn lesbo, then definitely she would be on my top five list as well. hehe.

honestly i do know for a fact that the perfect man does not exist. truth be told, in my opinion, the imperfections are factors that makes a person beautiful. theoretically, once the individual knows that he/she is with imperfections then they will try their very best to outshine it with other great qualities that contributes to the attractiveness of the person; in whole. should that not count for something? i think it should. a million points for the efforts! of course the saying, dari mata jatuh ke hati is undeniable to a certain extend. we like what we see. we judge. we're only humans.

once, i was in a conversation with one of my dearest friends that was about to tie the knot and she asked me, 'how do i know if he is the right one?'. after a few minutes of battering over right and wrong, we came to a conclusion, there is no mr.right no matter how much you try to convice yourself. there is however , mr. right now; and hopefully along the way, even beyond every single flaws that he has, you'll come to learn that it is acceptable and there's no way in heaven you could ever exist without him, no matter what. probably then, you'll drop the now and everything will be just... right.

here's a toast to 'hope' !

ada kawan

• someone to have breakfast, lunch, brunch, tea time, dinner, supper and snacks with
• someone to have coffee with
• someone to sing with
• someone to workout with
• someone to call when you needed to chat
• someone to update you with gossips
• someone to be there when you needed help
• someone to accompany you to the movies
• someone to drive around with
• someone to share your most ridiculous dreams with
• someone to share your lamest jokes with
• someone to lash out your frustrations to
• someone to pinch
• someone to squeez
• someone to bite
• someone to hug
• someone to confort
• someone to always back you up
• someone to listen
• someone to 'do nothing' with
• someone to be your witness

... seronok kan ada kawan?

gaia in pain

it was 4.45pm when anas called me to say that he was taking me out for dinner. of coz i was more than excited by that and was getting ready to leave the house to run a few errands before the meet. i had a tiny nagging feeling right after, to call him back and remind him to drive safely due to the heavy pour but as always, the thought just brushed itself away. at approximately 5pm, anas called to tell me that he was involved in an accident on the highway near rembau. at first i thought he was just pulling my legs as he sounded so calm. only after a minute did i realise that it was true. the heavy rain accumulated a puddle of water on the uneven part of the highway and caused the car to plunge straight into the hillside, not before making a 720 degrees spin on the road. it wasn't speed driving or anything, guess that's why it's called an accident. sometimes things just happen. thank god no other vehicles were involved and most importantly, anas escaped with nothing more than minor sprains. i finally reached there around 6.45pm. anas was safely waiting in the car and after a few moments with him, it finally hit me how disoriented he was. my poor baby cant even count right. 559-226=7..?! under the circumstances, it's understandable. =)

gaia is definitely due for a very long make over session and anas... alhamdulillah he is alright. well, almost there. =)

4am delight

it's pitch dark outside and my beauty slumber was disturbed by the routine track race of the kids... thank god mummy love you guys that much, or else you would be having a midnite bath by now.

tummy hurts. not due to hunger but because of the aching abdominal muscles that are well on it's way to be sculpted like ms spears'. diet is on the list. dinner is now only restricted to salad. im not sure if 3 servings of salads with a whole bottle of thousand island followed by a bar of chocolate would be considered a healthy diet, but to hell with it! i was hungry. 4am also opened the door to 6 pieces of mcnuggets dipped with barbeque sauce. hmm. yummy.

solution: more sit ups. tonnes more! targeted results. yup. screw the rest!

'give me, give me.. give me, give me more'

yes britney, im listening.

fast lane

rush hour, trains flooded with men, people bumping into each other without a clue who we really are, day in day out trying to be someone.

STOP!

rimas.

if only we could actually just look to our side and ask if that person is feeling ok. if only we are courageous enough to care. if only we could know each others' names and remind ourselves that we do mean something.

well, im not over my holiday mood yet. maybe im missing someone. a certain somebody that could brighten my day. wish he could be nathan and just fly back for a cup of coffee. wouldn't that makes it just damn fabulous?!